Archive for August, 2006

Family Business Destroyed by Arson

Sunday, August 27th, 2006

I usually don’t care much about the news in Martinsville. Today was different.

My parents owned an ISP. I started doing tech support for that ISP at age 13. That was the beginning of my passion for technology. I learned as much as I could as often as I could (and still do). While most teens are out there dating and driving, I was on the computer. My favorite thing to do was learn HTML, a little bit of programming and new os platforms. Like Windows, unix, even DOS.

The fire was horrible, because my mother and father lost everything. A domino affect happened after this, my parents ended up closing shop. Because it was arson against the house next door that spread to the Rnet building, they fought tooth and toenail for the insurance company about getting the money to get setup again. Before they could get any resolution, RnetInc went into Bankruptcy and my Parents began losing everything that they ever worked for. Since 97, Rnet was everything to my parents. They even mortgaged their house to use the money and invest in projects that Rnet had going on in Laffayette, Chicago, and even St. Louis, MS. They had just signed a million dollar deal. It was the first time in my dad’s life where he really felt successful.

My parents are not bad people. So why did this happen? Dad still works at his full time at his job at the power plant he’s worked at for 25+ years.

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she is 4years and he is 4 weeks today

Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006

Today, I took Haylee to glamour shots to get her pictures taken. They did her makeup and curled her hair. She felt like a princess too. I was glad to do something that was just for her. She has done so well with her new job of being a big sister. She’s had her moments, but she has gone through A LOT of changes this year.

It’s funny because Ryan just turned 4 weeks old today. Haylee is four years. She and I have made it through thick and thin and thinner over the past four years. It’s funny how time flies. And when you’re not watching too closely, life happens.

No matter if you are 4 weeks old, or 4 years, as long as you have stability and lOvE. Life is good. You know why kids are happier than grownups? Because something as simple as getting your pictures taken will make your whole week.

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happily ever after

Monday, August 21st, 2006

I am with a wonderful man. I love him with all my heart. We’ve had our moments when we have disagreed on important issues and even not so important issues. Since the baby was born, and even during pregnancy, I think I have cried more just because of hormones. In the early hours of the morning while feeding the baby, I think I decided that getting upset so much was no good. In the end, I know he loves me and I know he’ll be there for me. It won’t always be perfect. Love is finding a person that you can just be with. For better or for worse.

Gramma says that when you love a man with all your heart in spite of his imperfections (and he loves you in spite of yours), and stand behind him even when you know he’s wrong. Then that is the man that you can stand by for life.

If I had to choose between this life and the fairy tale, I’d have to say I’m already happy and when a girl is in love as much as I, she already has a happily ever after.

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being a parent

Saturday, August 19th, 2006

At home today. It’s Saturday, and it has been a beautiful morning. I have the blinds open, so the sun is shining in. Ryan and I have been hanging out. I read that you should always try to keep babies awake during the daytime and keep things quiet at night, so maybe by three months they sleep all night. The thought of it is wonderful. :) Phil is out with the guys today. Which I think is great for him. It’s easier for me to have him at home, but I don’t want him to think that parenthood is the end of your social life as you know it. LOL, even though, it sort of is. You are a parent first, then you sort of resume to your old self when the baby is a little older, or worse. . . On his way to college.

If I have ever done anything right with Haylee, it has been to take care of me so I could take care of her. She has turned out to be quite the social butterfly, and very “understanding” as much as a kid can be. She can be quite independent, but not completely of course. There are times as a parent when you just “do without” or put your own hopes and wants aside to do it later for the kids. However, you will never be a good parent unless you are happily balanced in your life and take time for yourself and your friends.

We will take time to just be together too. That time will come soon enough. I really want to make sure that we can have time together, out to dinner, out dancing, or to clubs and hang out with friends and be young too. I still want to try new things and see new things and go to new places.

That’s just me.
Life is too short not to enjoy it.

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a fair and a funeral

Thursday, August 17th, 2006

Yesterday, I went to a funeral. Ryan was three weeks old yesterday too. It was hard to leave him and Haylee at home with Phil. I knew they’d all be just fine, and they were. However, funerals are not something anyone likes to attend alone. Which is why I knew I needed to go. My Gramma had lost one of her sisters and I can’t imagine how hard that would be.

I have sister and a brother who are both older. Even though the years have made us drift apart a little, they are still both very close to my heart. That’s the thing about siblings. Growing up they drive you crazy, but when up you’re suddenly a grown up you realize they are very much a part of who you are.

When I came home, we all went to the state fair. Me, Phil, Haylee and Ryan. It was definitely fun. Good food, that’s very bad for you. Rides that give you a thrill. (or mostly Haylee:) And being with the people you love most in the world.

As mixed up as it may sound, the whole day helped me appreciate life a little more.

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Hanging out at home

Monday, August 14th, 2006

Today is the first day that me and baby Ryan have stayed home together. Just the two of us. Then, I got lonely and I called my mom. :) That happens right after you have a baby. She and Gramma came here around 1:30 today. Just in time to feed Ryan. It’s so funny to watch them both around babies. You can tell how much they love them. It is so good for mom too. She is always so happy around her grandbabies.

I feel too young to actually be a mom of two kids, but I think that must be a good thing. Even though it can get a little stressful, they are both constant reminders of what really matters to me. They remind me to laugh more, and love more, and even cry a little more.

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